That’s the great enigma for me now.
What do I want in general, and what do want this blog to be in particular?
I’m asking because I am admitting to more and more people that I do this, handing out my “secret” address and am considering opening it up even more
So far it has been by invite only or my random friends finding it. No pushing, not FB or twitter connection, no effort. I just write.. Maybe I just spew.
But does that work? I am all over the place on this blog and most blogs tend to have a theme. Mine could be sobriety and grief, but then there’s yoga and spirituality and searching and dating and so many other things…life, I guess. Is it confusing to people?
Is that s good blog theme?
I don’t have the cute kids stories, or the husband stories…
I’m older and live alone.
I date, I don’t drink,I am reinventing myself in my later years….I imagine there are more post to be mined there.
I guess I am writing this because I don’t know what to do. Like I said if you searched me, my name, this blog would not come up. It’s been private and I have used that level of private to write what I want and not hold back a lot. Would I have to change that? Would I be more wary, more circumspect in what I write? But then, why write, if it’s not the truth, if I can’t be vulnerable?
It’s a conundrum I guess, and one that I might like to solicit some input from all of you on.
I worry about shocking certain friend and family. I worry about being googled by a dating prospect and having them find this and dismiss me right off the bat…it has happened,and why I went private in the first place.
Do I need a narrower path? I like sobriety and grief because those are areas I can be helpful in, but I also like to be funny and pithy and, frankly, entertain myself as well as get out my angst. I want to delve more into essay writing on particular subjects, lists, stories about specific events and who knows what else. I’d like to add more music and poetry and quotes to illustrate my themes.
I am really pondering all of this right now. I still have my storytelling goals too, and need this as a place to practice, hone them for maybe reading them somewhere. I have been looking into venues for that….too afraid to submit but that won’t always be the case, certainly.
I feel at a crossroads…either leave this small and solitary or open it up, let my truth out, let people know what I am doing. It’s a hard and scary proposition, and one I don’t make lightly. Input would help.
What do you like,and NOT like about my blog and what I write? Themes that I wrote about, do they work? Is it too unfocused ? I am not looking for anything but the truth here, so don’t worry, I’m not easily offended and am seriously asking for feedback. And all of you…I know some of you by your real names, but does everyone? Do you tweet new posts, FB the info? Are you out as YOU? I am curious as to why or why not.
There is a huge part of me that is just saying “fuck-it”, let’s put it out there, I have nothing to lose. Yet maybe I do? Maybe I haven’t thought of all I have to lose.
And maybe, like I said, it doesn’t matter. I can do what I want, throw caution to the wind, write my truth and let whatever happens happen. Why not?